In an earlier post, I mentioned one of the things that attracted me to T'ai Chi was the notion that as long as you breathe, you can get distance on challenges in your life, and look at it as entertainment. Well, when the challenge is cancer in your loved one, it's not. It's just not.
However, I have been grateful to fling off the worry every day. Just fling it off into the universe with its vast, unlimited ability to absorb and diffuse it, rather than let it accumulate. Because my worry is not going to help anyone. Not her. Not myself. Not the other loved ones who are also worried about her.
Today, my challenges are nothing compared to hers. But the nervousness and worry are there. The tightness in the chest and stomach. I just keep breathing, and waiting, and breathing, and helping however I can.
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